despi3z

i might cut my hair if it didn't remind me of you, but just like the fade from september into the pits of october, i fall. down       the rabbit       hole. i'm not alice, this isn't wonderland, but i am just as surrounded by things that yell, "eat me! drink me!" and they don't say it but i know they'll all make me bigger, sadder, fatter, too big to fit into a house, my arms my legs come shooting out, everything i feel is just too loud- look. i should be better than i am. i should be taking the world by the shoulders, shaking back its shoulders because i am a storm, i am a force of nature and you will take notice- but my winds are quiet